The kissing hands

Ryan said,  mommy kiss my hands. After k

I kissed his hands,  he put them closed to his heart and walked in to school.. 

7th day to school and NO CRYING

He woke up in the morning, still refused to go to school. Nagging in the morning when I asked him to brush his teeth and get ready for school. Complaint to daddy and continued to nag. Kate and me sent him to school. We sang songs in the car and we pray for him in the car. We asked God to give him strength to be strong and give him the sense of security. God is always good and answered our prayers. 

He walked to the school with Kate and when he saw teacher Yen, he showed off his water bottle strip to her and then place his shoes in proper place. Kate passed the bag to him then he walked in to the class without any reluctance. He put down the bag and then turned to me and asked for hug and kiss. I then hug him and kiss him and said goodbye to him. I was reluctant to let him go by seeing him so independent and mature. 

He was still standing at the door looking at us go. I drove my car in front of gate and Kate shouted good bye Ryan, I love you!

Ryan got scolded by daddy

Ryan likes to play with our room door and often pushes the door closed when someone was trying to enter the room. This time he did it again onto me. Daddy got furious and shouted at him. Daddy told him to sit still on the bed and be quiet as he was crying very hard and loud. He kept sobbing and crying and daddy continued to tell him to be quiet. He was trying very hard to close his mouth to prevent sound from coming out of his throat but it made him couldn't breath as the sobbing was too extreme.

Then he said " but daddy, I cannot stop it ". He bursted out crying again after the words out of his mouth. ( I couldn't help giggling there while turning my head aside. ) He is so adorable yet pitiful. This made Kate cried as well. Ryan sitting on the floor while Kate leaning on me and cried. Daddy quickly carried him up as he realised how harsh he was treating our little boy.

Kate told me,
I felt like crying every time I see Ryan cried. I then told her, this is how much you love your brother. And I really think the sibling love is very strong now as there is nothing externally to affect the pure and simple LOVE.

Daddy reading book to Ryan, feeling the guilt

My Alone Trip to Taiwan

I have to visit mom due to her cancer condition got worse. This is also my first time leaving Ryan. I was expecting myself to cry but not till the extend of non-stop crying but it was what happened. Deep inside me I felt really hurt leaving them. The feel of holding their hands, touching their face, hugging them is what I miss so fondly.

Today is also my last time of feeding him (@8:15am). I was too busy making sure everything is in the right place for them and myself. I didn't really try very to remember it but as I am writing this, I really miss the moment of seeing him sleeping while sucking his soothing nipple.

Her BFF

What Kate was looking forward is not Megan's 6th birthday party but to meet up with her BBF Grace. She wanted to show Grace the photo book I made for her which has Grace's photos in it. As we went over to toys R us to choose birthday present for Megan, she was already asking me to buy the Shopkins for her even when we were on the way to Gurney plaza. I knew that Erfi has bought one for her so I told her to pray hard to God and see if God answers her prayer. In my mind, I was saying it to build her faith with God. ( Hopefully by the time she gets to read this, she has built a very strong faith with God. ) In this way, she builds her faith with God and also the relationship with Grace. She was really praying hard to God and it is so cute! Children has the simplest mind! Whatever you say, they just believe it with whole of their heart.